I have always had many mixed thoughts and emotions about Mother’s Day. I would say that this “holiday”, more than any other, brings on a variety of feelings to most women depending on what season of life you happen to be in. While currently being thrust into a season of my life that I did not expect for a few more years, I am pondering Motherhood quite deeply these days.
Since today I cannot be with most of my loved ones, whether they be far or whether they be in the Spirit World, I decided to decorate myself with reminders of them. Today I wear my mother’s beautiful ruby and diamond heart ring, and a tiny Navajo turquoise and sterling silver ring that my dear grandmother gave to me. On my wrist I wear a beaded crystal and silver bracelet that my daughter made, and my Eagle Scout mother pin on my shirt. And, even though I am with my dear husband today, I wear some lovely diamond stud earrings that he gave me for an anniversary a few years ago. These simple yet dear items envelope me in memories and warm thoughts of past years and precious moments gone by.
During the long wait for children to arrive to us, I skipped many a Sacrament Meeting on Mother’s Day. Even though I knew I would hear lovely talks focusing on “all women” being Mothers, I just couldn’t take it. When my children were little and I was feeling overwhelmed and tired, I didn’t skip the meeting, but endured hearing about all the wonderful mothers in the room and felt that I did not measure up to any of them. Today, definitely a little older and hopefully slightly wiser, I appreciated the words of the youth speaker, a mother of adult children, a young father, and of our dear bishop. Their words touched my heart and lifted me – is that because of my “season”?
My mom used to tell me that” what goes around comes around”. Today seemed like a “full circle” day in my life.