I don't really know what to write here, except that I need to write something. I refer back to this post wherein I described a fear of L doing a little "jumping". Those fears have become reality. She chose to not catch herself. We can no longer catch her if she is unwilling for us to do so. As Hubby and I deal with free-falling into a reality we did not choose, and one we fought mightily against, we wait for a phone call that she is now ready to be caught. We are not sure where that phone call will come from, nor if it will in fact come at all.
How do parents deal with these types of situations? I'm still not sure. I never, ever saw myself in this type of position. I don't mean to be cryptic, but I really don't want to "air it all out" here. I count myself blessed to know that many friends are praying for us and for her. That is all anyone can do at this point. Yet, who wants to be in a position where YOU are the one being prayed for, and worried about? I don't want to be. I'd rather be praying for someone else. Surely that is one of the keys. That is what the gospel teaches.
We'll just have to wait a little while.....or, maybe a really long one this time.